No one gives a shit about each other anymore and this is the thought that constantly comes up when I think about suicide. And I’m not trying to gain sympathy votes here or make this look cool or make anyone else feel this way, but seriously. I don’t understand why it’s so difficult to do such simple things as respect someone or be kind to someone or be honest. For a while I thought that it was just the people in my life or maybe this god awful place I live in, but it’s bigger than that. I can’t fucking wrap my head around how cruel some people are to each other. And it’s not even just flat out cruelty, but the carelessness that people have towards one another. I don’t know if people ever did really care about one another, but if so, when did it stop? Maybe it’s an age thing. Like at a certain age people just don’t care anymore and I should just grow the fuck up and stop caring so much. But I just cannot wrap my head around this blatant disregard for other human life. The lack of love is something I don’t know if I will ever get used to. Again, it’s not just in my personal life, although there’s plenty of examples there, but it’s fucking everywhere. Honesty, respect, loyalty, kindness, and love seem to have all been washed away and I can’t stand it.
My constant depressive thought is that I’m too sensitive for this world; that I care too much about other people and may never figure out how to live in a world that is the opposite. It took many unfortunate events for me to realize this, but it’s the truth.